Showing posts from January, 2014


Leaving all chat use. With no intentions of coming back anytime soon... I'm also quitting writing for a while... I might start it up again... but for now... back to being that closet internet user that nobody will know.

Visionary Storytime Fridays - Introducing the Hope of Recovery

Light shines brighter at night. These years have proven it so. I am no longer defined by the night. What I did before has been cleansed at the cost of Christ. I am becoming the noble maiden that god longs me to be, but by no means have I been completed. I am restore to who I was to the core, and am slowly drawing nearer to the identity He made in me. However, even in knowing this all to be true, my past still comes to haunt me, and I fear the shadows shall take me again. I am afraid that I'll be so discouraged by the times that, once again, I shall lose recollection, and forget ho I am. I hated my life as it had been when it happened last time. I refuse to return to that lifestyle. But unease and unrest takes my heart, and in their hands they sow hopelessness, shame, a longing for death, and despair. Though such darkness come to snuff it, my candle remains a soft, warm, comforting glow to others, holding me firm in the hope of Christ. But, still, though my flesh threatens to end t…

Everything's Gonna Be Alright - Finding Your Beauty

The Mirror Lies (REVISED!)
If I told you who I was I'd only know this to start; I love to seek for the good in things And adventure is my goal I know that my heart mourns of things In ways uniquely known A joy arrayed in His light To shine to the Hope of all I know that what calls me forth in faith Visions, dreams, music, and love Colours and sounds in the world I've often spoke with them alone I am a child who lives life in sorrow But, not all can even see I have a simplicity yet a mystery about my life That baffles the world and even me They call me odd, mad and stupid A fool, insane, posessed But, I prefer to call myself unique A mystery behind a veil I am like a corridor of puzzles Which has yet to be unlocked Each day I find something new and hidden And it comes to heal my heart So, essentially I am a healing detective I seek and venture through my world Can't stay in one spot for long For I long after spreading His word I love to travel and wish I could more I know my curiosity at times Breaks me …

Joy's Lament... Soundwave Story Wednesdays

I'm starting a Wednesday Project of Soundwave Story Wednesdays, where I  elaborate on them with stories in it, that I've seen.

Today, I'm going to post some lyrics of a song that helped me through the years known a "Job Suite" by Michael Card...and the story is about myself.

Blameless and upright, a fearer of God A man truly righteous, no pious facade One about whom God was accustomed to boast And so one whom Satan desired the most One day the accuser came breathing out lies "It's Your holy handouts, his faithfulness buys" In one desperate day his possessions were lost His children all killed in one raw holocaust His children all killed in one raw holocaust

As a young child, I was raised upright, and was very true to it. I hated to lie, to hide, to run, I never masked myself, and was very close to the Lord. But, as my teen years began creeping in, we lost our house due to bankruptcy. I lost several friends I "adopted" as daughters, and so…

Everything's Gonna Be Alright --Face Your Doubts

Fear vs. Courage --a talk with the Father By: Arianna P. Scriptsmith
I lay on the ground, weeping heavily and shaking in my ripped shirt, on the floor. My tears pooled in a puddle on the tiles. I shuddered there as if cold.
"Why do you cry my child?" a soothing, still voice came over me as if a hand lay a warm blanket over me. I looked up to the ceiling, with tears staining my cheeks, "Oh, Father, I am afraid."
"What is it that you are afraid of? Have I not commanded you not to fear?" the voice responded to me, in a voice of kind rebuking.
I tensed up, as if preparing for something unpleasant, "I-- I am afraid, because I am not able. I fear that I will hurt the brother I care for. I back him up... but, I'm afraid that I'll fall back down. I'm afraid I'll just be another one of that long list of people that fought by his side... and became a traitor I--"
Something like a loving …

Everything's Gonna Be Alright --What Your Faith Means

I wish I knew what came next. I hear the ending is good and beautiful, and have so much hope that it is so... but, I see the chaos of the moment and I wonder could a happy ending ever come of this? They say faith is the opposite doubt. But a wise man has told me that faith is not the lack of doubt. If we didn't doubt ourselves in our faith he would actually be worried. Even a child, who trusts their father fully may doubt. And the Lord says we must have the faith of a child. We must come as little children. But even children have their doubts. It's natural. It's human. When running tongues spread rumors of daddy, they turn to look... They try to defend, yet they fall... Words can hurt. You know that silly childhood rhyme? "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" well, when the words are said and the fists fly, the broke bones will have long since mended, words tend to take longer to heal. And once you hear the rumors spread that can har…

Everything's Gonna Be Alright Thursdays -- Look Up and Rise

2 [a]Then I lifted up my eyes and looked, and behold, there was a man with a measuring line in his hand.2 So I said, “Where are you going?” And he said to me, “To measure Jerusalem, to see how wide it is and how long it is.”3 And behold, the angel who was speaking with me was going out, and another angel was coming out to meet him,4 and said to him, “Run, speak to that young man, saying, ‘Jerusalem will be inhabited [b]without walls because of the multitude of men and cattle within it.5 For I,’ declares the Lord, ‘will be a wall of fire [c]around her, and I will be the glory in her midst.’” 6 “[d]Ho there! Flee from the land of the north,” declares the Lord, “for I have dispersed you as the four winds of the heavens,” declares the Lord.7 “Ho, Zion! Escape, you who are living with the daughter of Babylon.”8 For thus says the Lord of hosts, “After [e]glory He has sent me against the nations which plunder you, for he who touches you, touches the [f]apple of His eye.9 For behold, I will wa…