Her passion and imagination was so vast and so wild, it came curling from the top of her head
~M.J. FAHEL MCKIMZEY |
I'm a brave ragamuffin princess raised in SC! Bookdragon, Blogger, Vlogger Scriptsmith, Artisan ,&; Bard for Christ.
Well, hello again, folks! Been an interesting time since I last posted... I believe things are really improving since my visit with my therapist. 'T'was a difficult road, and it still will be, for a time. I've been spending time in Scripture and prayer, have aimed to apply what I have promised to my therapist, doctor and my parents. Hmm... Still in the process of leaving my past and my fears behind, where it should be. A difficult feat, but I truly aim for full recovery. God's grace goes before me, and though I don't always feel it, I know it is the truth. My projects are coming along, but I'm going to set a general schedule for my day tonight to improve the process of my recovery, homeschool and my projects.
Events (and Things I Look Forward To)
Mum's birthday is coming up (on February 5th)! I'm thinking about making her something with my talents, she'd treasure it more, even if it is a small and simple thing. Then, I am hoping to take my little sister to go to the Winter Jam 2015 the day after mum's bday! We're both looking forward to it! And then there's February 12th, I shall be going back to the library for the second Writing Show, hosted by the Hub City Writer's Project, about writing food in stories... This one was the one I was looking forward to most(that and the one about writing wars in story on May 14)! Red is coming out with their newest album on the 24th! I really want to have it, but I do not have the money to buy it just yet... So, February is busy, busy, and filled with things! And I've been setting plans for my trip in April... We're trying to see if we can visit IL, with our friend Kindy, instead of TX, and to go there from April 9th-16th then go to have a week or two with Savvy in IN... Just hoping I'll be able to afford this trip!
Conclusion
And so, with all that said, it's a wonder I've not lost my mind due to the heavy weight of promises, commitments, and responsibilities that I must bear due to all this good news and hopes that I have raised. It is a lil burdensome, however, it's very exciting and something I really take pleasure in doing! I just hope I don't completely lose it due to the stress... probably already have though :P So, uhm...hmmm.... *wonders if I should break the commitment to take that sabbatical from April to July* welp, peace out! Rock on! and...
Been one of those weeks... I fell behind in my commitments to keep doing my dailyaudiobible and the do the 40 days of prayer... But things are beginning to pick up as well. My daddy and I began working on how we react towards each other... which is wonderful!
I've been working on another sequel to "The Alchemist's Sanctuary" (prequel to "Faith in the Unknown") based on "So Far Away" by RED... Hoping to finish it very soon!
Also, I did an actual personality test...I got:
66% INFP
12% ENFP
6% INFJ
4% ENTP
4% ISFP
I saw sides of me in it that I didn't acknowledge before and it was very eye opening... 0.0.
INFP
Idealistic, loyal to their values and to people who are important to them. Want an external life that is congruent with their values. Curious, quick to see possibilities, can be catalysts for implementing ideas. Seek to understand people and to help them fulfill their potential. Adaptable, flexible, and accepting unless a value is threatened.
ENFP
Warmly enthusiastic and imaginative. See life as full of possibilities. Make connections between events and information very quickly, and confidently proceed based on the patterns they see. Want a lot of affirmation from others, and readily give appreciation and support. Spontaneous and flexible, often rely on their ability to improvise and their verbal fluency.
INFJ
Seek meaning and connection in ideas, relationships, and material possessions. Want to understand what motivates people and are insightful about others. Conscientious and committed to their firm values. Develop a clear vision about how best to serve the common good. Organized and decisive in implementing their vision.
ENTP
Quick, ingenious, stimulating, alert, and outspoken. Resourceful in solving new and challenging problems. Adept at generating conceptual possibilities and then analyzing them strategically. Good at reading other people. Bored by routine, will seldom do the same thing the same way, apt to turn to one new interest after another.
ISFP
Quiet, friendly, sensitive, and kind. Enjoy the present moment, what's going on around them. Like to have their own space and to work within their own time frame. Loyal and committed to their values and to people who are important to them. Dislike disagreements and conflicts, do not force their opinions or values on others.
Anyway... Onto Other Things...
Homeshool's coming along... (pfft... YEAH RIGHT!) Beginning science lessons about light! :D ....sigh... I really wish I knew what to write... Been very depressed, have writer's block, and stuff really aren't going that well... so really, all I will say in this part is please be praying for me, my family, and my friend Savvy and Caroline... I am really overwhelmed now... I need to focus on what is here, now, in my family and my life... and I need to help my friend Savvy, cuz there I know I have the ability to aid... with Caroline, no...
Conclusion
Welp, since there ain't much to say... and I am wasting a whole bunch of time procrastinating.... I shall say why postpone til tomorrow whatcha can do TODAY? so peace out! Rock on! And....
[[PS lyrics come from "Give it Up" by Eleventyseven]]
EXTRA UPDATE!!!: Also, almost completely forgot about this; I will be aiming to grow my hair til it is 12inches WHILE CURLED until I can donate it! The next haircut I aim to get AFTERWARD is similar to this one:
This month, I am beginning some challenges, small groups, and I started my first visit into 2015's Writing Show hosted in my library... I would really love to invite you all to join a challenge in particular with me, however...
I know, we, as humanity have such a hard time with prayer. We somehow think we must be official and have the greatest vocabulary to discuss matters with God, as if that will impress him... Or we bring God this looooooong wishlist as if He's Santa Claus... So, Max Lucado in this devotional is making it simple for us... 4 minutes everyday for 4 weeks, praying.
Click the photo and it should send you to where you can buy this!
In my last post, I mentioned dailyaudiobible, it's not too late if you want to join the community in listening to the bible in a year, it never is anyway... I'd suggest you pick up from the day you get on and keep going... It'll change your life, I assure you of that! You will not come out of it the same...
And from January 20th - March 24th my church's women's group will be doing a study in Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul, which I shall be a participant in. I'm looking quite forward to this women' small group!
Tomorrow, mum will be starting her first semester in Liberty University. And with her having a fulltime 8am-4pm job, being a homeschool mother, the lay ministries coordinator and helper at the youth group at our church, and designing a commission website, she'll be busy... Be praying for her, my brothers and sisters in Christ, please... She's kinda concerned over this...
I've been stuck on writing journal entries and poetry, lately. Also, have been publishing them on my wattypad... I'm trying to assess myself and I feel as though God is calling me to find my all in Him. I am doing this because of these promptings:
Everybody's saying I'm beautiful... I acknowledge that I look pretty, beautiful even... but I look deeper than the outward appearance in all people, including myself... So, when I look into the mirror, into my eyes, all I see is fear. Always fear. As if there's a huge screen inside my eyes and it's just permanent... Then I look at the qualities of what I actually DO in my fear... I lie to, betray, manipulate not only everyone else, but myself... I can never go beyond that point. If I am fearfully and wonderfully made and God sees something precious when He looks on me, and I am the apple of His eye. If all that is true, then how can I see past my fear to see myself as He sees me? I don't want to say that I don't feel fearfully and wonderfully made, because feelings are so very deceptive. In fact, I'm just skipping that argument altogether and going straight to this question; how can I see myself the way God sees me?
Then there is trust. I have such a difficult time trusting anyone as of late... but I am not going to start by learning to trust humanity... I want to start by learning to trust in God. If any of you guys have read my journal entry, The Doctor Knows Best... you might notice in it I talk about trusting that the Healer knows what He's actually saying when He says "no". It isn't to take the good things away, but in His loving wisdom He knows we are ill, and He wants us to be well. Because He is God, and we are not God. If you haven't read it, I suggest you do(the link is on the title). I really want to work on this.. Because, I want to so depend on Him so that I can have the courage to take that leap of faith and know wherever this goes, He will be there.
Then there is the extent of our sinfulness and the extent of the pain that Christ had to go through in this life to save the lost... And WHY we believe. And WHY He had to die for the sins... And the pain of the crucifixion... because, we, in the Western World, especially cannot comprehend the road to the cross and how determined Christ HAD to be to keep going... Look guys, it wasn't oh, hop in a car or plane and be there within 2 hours... No, it was much further and longer than that, and He knew where He was going. He knew He'd die the most humiliating and excruciating death known to mankind... then, deeper into it, He knew He'd have to face the agony of being forsaken by His Father, who He was one with from the very beginning! I want to learn the way of the cross...
And if I learn this and grow in this, I know and believe that I will learn how to walk as a woman of faith... I am willing to let go of whatever will hinder my growth in faith. Relationships, hobbies, desires, mindsets, whatever I have, the Lord has full access to it...
So, all of that together in one sentence; There's gonna be a [RADICAL and EPIC] change!
[Quote is from this song below...]
Soooooo, that's that...God bless you all.
May fair winds follow you and the Author guide you.
Well 2014 has come and gone. And 2015 has dawned... 'Twas a good year, 'twas a hard year... I've grown closer to God during this time. When I finished December 31st's daily audio bible podcast and heard each thing closed down, I realized that I could not go on my days without it... So, though my church is no longer going through it, together, I am going to continue. I have come closer to the Lord because of that...
Now, I'm not going to make any New Years' Resolutions, except this; I am going to submit my will to God's will. I want the attitude of honestly saying to God, "YOUR kingdom come, YOUR will be done." I had to go through a beating, I had to be broken hard, I had to actually be at death's door to realize that I cannot live a day without Him. To know that He has always been there for me, even when my eyes are closed to that truth... So, now, I am going to go where He leads and do as His hand guides me to do.
Projects...
So I had an Advent Project that I did in the days coming up to Christmas. I also had plans for other projects, one that I never got through with, one I just started up and one I just finished.... I didn't do the 12-Days of Christmas project that I promised, but I completed The Promised Rainbow (originally Rainbow Slices). It will be going through revisions and editing as I make illustrations to accompany each poem. I'm hoping to self-publish this for LIGHT for MI. The other project I am doing now is building the world of my novel, Aurdeum. I'm using resources such as the SFWA Fantasy World Builder, YWP NaNoWriMo, and reading short stories as a model for my story. So, I've got my hands full! I intend to be working on my novel for the next couple of years... just hoping to self-publish that as well. And lately, I've been sitting around, making graphics to express what I am feel at that very moment... It has been very fun doing digital art... It's been very therapeutic :) Also, I have created a new template on this blog, as you can see... Let me know whatcha think!
Sabbatical/Trip
Well, now it's reached to this... On April 1st - July 1st I am attempting a 3-month sabbatical from the internet to focus on my projects more in depth, on my growth in God, on finishing my homeschool, and to reflect on my life and aim to change some really bad habits. Also, in April, I'll be leaving South Carolina to see my dearly beloved sister, Savannah and her family, in Indiana! Then I'll be leaving for Texas, to see my amazing friend, Mandie! Hoping to be away from home for 3 and a half weeks... When I come back home, I'll be planning outings with friends, and maybe even meet some new people in a writing group I'm starting back up, again!
Conclusion
So, there we have it! I have some plans with my life, I'm hoping that I'll go through with it... Wish me well with it! I pray that God will bless you with peace and until next time... Peace out and rock on!
Be at peace with yesterday, be wise with today, and be secure with tomorrow!Arianna Joy Schaffer (Arianna Persephone Scriptsmith ☧) Authoress - Artist - Musician - Minister in LIGHT for MI
Yesterday, I shared a photo on facebook, which inspired a poem called Armed and Fully Loaded. I have it up on my Sea of Faces poetry compilation on Wattpad, but I'm also sharing it here and will explain to you how it speaks to me...
The Inspiration of the Poem
I am a child
Chosen to fight a war
A Spirit war in my soul
The heart of a monster wild
To steal, kill and destroy the poor
Yet the One who chose me came to make me whole
I've got the Word
I'm ready for a blitzkrieg
Armed and fully loaded I stand
Firm in the Most High Lord
I shan't be afraid I refuse to retreat
Because The Lord is at my right hand
Yes, devils and demons, it's fully loaded
And no I'm not afraid to use it!
For too long you have intruded
On The Lord's property, but now in His name you shall go to the pits!
At a not so distant time for me, I had taken quite a fancy to evil things and shadows. I was quite curious and it was fun at the time for me to explore occults, cults, demonic activity and horrific things. I invited demons into my thoughts, spirit and home... This had me on my knees and being ripped to shreds by them, until every bit of them seemed to be what I became... When I was able to stand up for myself, my faith, and my Lord... it was only when I had been run down and broken enough that I just wanted to "forget everything and run" away from it all... but instead, I chose to "face everything and rise" from these ashes and that is the story behind this, when I was inspired by that photo...Well, thank you guys for taking time to read this, and until next time...
The highland games was quite fun, Saturday! It was just extremely fun... hot... but cooled down a LOT by 4pm... I hadn't gotten one sunburn, and nobody got sick, which was a first. Uncle Bill and Aunt Becky were there... And daddy made the decision to wear his kilt everyday... oh my...
There were 20 Pipes and Drums bands this year... more than there has EVER been in the 8 years they've hosted this so it was phenomenal and awe-inspiring to hear them playing as one!
Well, when we got home... I was hot and very tired, but we cleaned the apartment a lil and then headed to bed, to prepare for the company the next day... We had some great fun then too! The parents went and watched The Hitchhikers' Guide to the Galaxy... and (most) of the kids stayed in the living room, playing video games and drawing, talking, and designing graphics... One of the guys, Aaron, helped me with the designing of this blog! :D
Also, I moved my radio show here, and this blog will now be a personal one! The weekly posts here are different from there too, if you have not noticed the sidebars! So, yeah! I hope you all have a greatrest of the day, and I will try to update both of my blogs!
UPDATE: I found this on Tumblr... and it's SUPPOSED to be for when I'm asked any of these... but I REALLY just wanted to answer them all here just for the sake of it(only cuz I've not done these tags in YEARS):
Hair: What hair color looks best on you and what's your natural color?
Auburn looks best on me…(or so I’ve heard) my natural hair color is a
chocolate brown that looks black most times and shoots red vein-like
highlights when the sun hits it
Skin: Do you tan easily? Yes, quite easily... I burn then I tan :P
Eyes: What is your favorite show to watch? My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Nose: What is your favorite perfume/candle fragrance? Vanilla Candle
Mouth: Do you want to kiss anyone right now? Yes.
Tongue: What was in your last meal?
Pizza (Canadian Bacon and Hamburger)
Windpipe: Do you sing?
Yes, I sing… often times too much… I sing in solitude, when in public,
and have random outbursts amongst my circle of family and friends.
Neck: Do you wear necklaces? Sometimes.
Ears: How many piercings do you have (if any)? None
Cheeks: Do you blush easily? Yes, I blush when I'm happy, embarrassed, and too manic
Wrists: Have you ever broken a bone? No
Hands: Are you an artist/writer? Yup!
Fingers: Do you play an instrument? Yes. A guitar, a Scottish tin whistle, and recycled precussion(bottles, ice cream cartons, etc.)
Heart: Are you in love? If so, does the one you love know? Yes, but he doesn't know
Lungs: Do you smoke cigarettes? Nope.
Chest: Are your maternal/parental instincts strong? yup...
Stomach: Do you feel confident in your body image? aye.
Back: Are you a virgin? mhmm...
Hips: Do you like to dance? yes, but not in front of people(unless I'm way deep into God, spiritually... that's when everyone kinda disappears for me)
Thighs: Has anyone ever called you fat or ugly? yes, to both.
Knees: Have you ever cheated on someone? nope
Ankles: Have you ever been arrested? uh... nope...
MINI-UPDATE ON THE GAMES!: This is my second time whupping a man's arse in a duel! The third time,
this particular guy beat me... but we were a tie! he actually had a
challenge with me!
